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Unbelief

Tonight I visited Gateway Church's young adult service called Seven. I don't know anyone who goes to the service, but I decided to go anyway. See, I would usually have gone to the porch with watermark, but I moved to Colleyville and it's a thirty five minute drive... so I decided to try something ten minutes away instead. The one thing I noticed right off the bat is how free the people are to worship. In Zambia, the church body would stomp on the devil, shout amen, and dance around the room while singing praise to the Lord. But here, I look around the room and see very few people worshiping freely. I just feel that when you have the presence of the Lord inside you and you feel Him throughout the room, then your hands should be up, your knees should be bowed, and you should be rejoicing with everything in you.

Well. This church was the first church I have seen where almost every person in the room was visibly and internally rejoicing to our Lord. Shouting songs of praise and lifting their hands high. It was amazing.

As the first song began, I prayed that every person with his or her hands raised high would be changed tonight in Jesus' name. And I believed that it happened. In the back of my mind, I think I longed for and needed deeply to hear the message Pastor Preston shared tonight. The title of the message was unbelief. (You should go online and check it out--powerful stuff) He is on this series titled, "Benefits of Belief: a Series on the 23rd psalm"--tonight's message was about how a person can not rest if he or she has unbelief. The cool thing about today is that this morning I read the 78th Psalm and it was an account of how the Israelites didn't believe God could do what He continued to prove that He could do. They cried out during the day, received a miracle by nightfall, praised the Lord before bed, and woke up with unbelief again. It says, "they did not believe in God or trust in His deliverance."

Tonight Preston said some incredible quotes--I couldn't write fast enough to get all of them down. One that he said, "Yesterday's miracle was simply a down payment on tomorrow's wonders" is exactly how I am a lot of the time. The Lord will come through for me and I will be praising the heavens, but the next week something will happen and i'll be discouraged and doubtful again--just like the Israelites. but when am I going to completely trust that I have been provided for? When am ii-iii, going to stop weighing the options of my future, when God already told me i will do missions in Africa? if i am fully trusting the Lord, then i wouldn't weigh any options--i would listen and obey.

I love how I can feel convicted, tested, and comforted all at the same time. My God is a powerful and loving God. What a welcome back from Zambia...

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