Find rest, O my soul, in God alone

1 year ago today, my entire life completely changed. I remember around 8:30p.m. before I slept my last night by myself, running frantically around my bedroom "baby-proofing" it.  Many things were placed out of reach of little fingers. I remember getting ready, eating breakfast, and getting in the car all in a daze of excitement, wonder, and joy.  As I turned on the street and saw the gate, a wave of nervousness swept over me. What if I'm not a good mom? What if I can't really do this? Am I sure this is the right step of obedience? Then the gate opened.  I turned the corner of the building and saw my sweet boy.  He was riding on a bike on the other side of the yard.  He saw me and dropped the bike in an instant.  He started running.  He dove into my arms and just squeezed. Then I whispered: "Today is the day.  You are coming home" We signed the papers and said goodbyes.  I remember walking out of the orphanage thinking that this exact moment

"By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going." Hebrews 11:8 We walk in obedience towards an unknown season of life. And the GLORY of the Lord is upon us. Wow. The Lord has used the last three years of my life in Family Legacy ministry to radically alter my perspective.  Ann Voskamp sums up my feelings to perfection. "The Lord has used the injustices of this world to reveal to me the beauty of His face.  Real beauty is only found in the brokenness of sacrifice." (www.aholyexperience.com) I no longer want to have everything.  What I now want more than anything else is just more of God. I feel so humbled and so blessed that he chose me to help launch and pave the way for the Education Department in this ministry.  Check out the growth I've seen in the ministry since January 2011:                                                                        

Tonight, I'm still.  My sweet boy is in bed, gently sleeping. My house is quite. Worship music is in my ears. And I weep before my Savior. I weep. I weep and weep and weep. How gentle he is tonight. How calm my spirit is at this moment. When I breathe, I feel his embrace. I feel his comfort in my moments of isolation.  I feel his security in my moments of fear.  I feel his protection in my moments of worry.  I feel his faithfulness in the moments I'm overtaken by the unknown. Yes. Right now, my YES is to him and it speaks loudly. ________________________________________________________________________________ Ocean:  the   vast   body   of   salt   water   that   covers   almost   three   fourths   of  the   earth's   surface. The song I'm listening to is called Oceans, by Hillsong. Wow. It puts me on my face worshiping my Savior.  When I think about the ocean, the first word that comes to mind is "the unknown". To b

What does that actually look like? It's not about you.  It's not about me.  It's not about going to church.  It's not about listening to worship songs in your car, on the radio, at work, and during your time with Jesus. It's not about going to bible studies. It's not about laboring for the Lord in your workplace.  It's not even about full-time ministry. It's about love. Sure you can do all those things and love him.  Sure you can be in ministry, you can incorporate him into your workplace, you can listen to worship songs....BUT are these just things that you DO? Or can you stand back and actually say that with every FIBER of my being I compose a LOVE song for him. I'm convicted this morning, because I can't.  I can't say that with every piece of who I am, I DEEPLY DEEPLY am in LOVE with Jesus.  I can't say that I am SO in love with him that I can't stand the world.  I can't say that I am SO in love with him that I HAVE t